Everything's okay.

My life is settling down now and there's less trouble for me to deal with.

That frustration that was in my life is now gone. It ended the wrong way of course since once again, he drew conclusions. Whatever. You act as if having a friend over my house gives me the death penalty, dude. But yennoe what? It's fine. I'm okay with the outcome with everything cause hey- you're happy with someone. That's good. So you ended up having someone in the end for you after all. Enjoy the company, man.

&Me, I'm fine with just chilling and taking things as they come. Nothing's set in stone for me at the moment.
I wna stay more focused on my youth group and studies right now anyways. &Building up a stronger, healthier foundation with my family. I'm getting some progress with my mom again &its a great feeling to have her around me. I like the way we can laugh and just be CHILL. No tension after alla the tough shit. I love that. Youth group is helping a bunch too. I'm seeing everyone practically every other day and Passion Play has been the ultimate stress reliever. You have no idea just how grateful I am to people like these. &Studies? Well, it's a work in progress. I prefer being by myself in my studies so most likely, independent studies is where I'll be at. I'm gna just do that and get my high school diploma. Being in a public high school with friends is the least of my interests now. I just wna graduaaaate! I'll be in the process of getting my license too finally. Haha. &Hopefully in all of this mess, I can find a job. Maybe they'll rehire me back at Chase Receivables. Aha, being a transfer agent was a really comfortable and easy job. That or maybe Novato with my mom. I'll check my options later.

Relationship wise, I am perfectly happy with what I have for myself. No stress. No bullshit. I'm just happy to do things on my own for once. I was raised to be an independent and nothing has changed about that. I don't need anything from another person to make me feel secure or to make me have the need to be dependent. I'm okay.

&Yennoe what? Shit's looking up for me. (: